So, my father in law is in the hospital again. This time, social services is talking about putting him in a nursing home -- something that my wife and I, along with her sister, have all been saying for months (if not years by now). I'm a little concerned about how that kind of a change would affect my current living arrangement. For the past year, just after I lost my full time job, and not too long before my wife lost her full time job, we decided to move down here to the middle of nowhere and help take care of Dad. Needless to say, it's been a roller coaster with his mood swings and the revolving door policy that the hospital seems to have with him. I've actually gotten accustomed to living down here in the country. At the night, I can see the stars, and hear the quiet chirping of crickets -- or at least I *think* they are crickets. I don't have to worry about tripping in my own yard, only to end up in my neighbor's yard, and I like the landscape too. The drive into the city isn't too bad either -- but then again, I like long, expressway driving. So tomorrow, the family is going to meet with the social worker, and we'll see what becomes of our current situation. Here's my delima: Dad pays for the house and most of the utilities. In exchange we take care of him and make sure there's food in the cabinets. Not a bad arrangement if I do say so myself -- at least while my company is still starting out. With Dad possibly going into a nursing home, his finacial contribution to the household also goes away. Now, I know for a fact that while my wife is still working at part time at Walmart, that's not nearly enough to pay for the bills. So, needless to say, we might be tossed out on our ear. I have a strange feeling tonight is going to be yet another sleepless night.
In other news, I've relaunched my Anime Store dream again. Today, I found an add-on to SMF, my forum software that allows for e-Commerse, to be directly integrated. So, I applied the modifications and started adding inventory. I'm hoping that soon, I'll be able to provide the one time $200 bulk order so that I can be accepted for vendor access at a well known distributor. That means that I can lower the cost of all the goods and still make a decent wage. Ultimatly, I'd love to hand out prizes and stuff on the forum for good posts. But that's only the first part of my dream. I want a physical store that I can build. I want COS-players to work there and I want fans to relax and watch thier favorite anime on a giant screen television. I also want a sushi bar or something right there in the store. Well, it sounds cool. Now if only I could get a loan to make it happen!
I'm almost finished with the second chapter of Future's Blessings. Finally. It's felt like an uphill battle getting the words on the page. I don't really know why I'm having such a hard time writing. Maybe it might have something to do with fear -- fear of not having the same high standards I had on Chapter 1. Fear that for whatever reason, the second chapter won't be as good. Whatever the reason, I'll be glad when it's finished -- well the rough draft anyway. I'll still have to go back and clean up all the I did, I thought, I felt sentences, and expand a lot of the scenes that I touched on in the story. In a way, I'm thinking that this story is going to replace my other major work, Stolen Innocence, and it's sequal, Call of the Valkyrie. It's better written, lower maturity requirement, and still has a lot of simular stuff going on in the story -- well, the plot in Future's Blessings is much darker, and more drama filled too. I've already got lots of cool ideas for chapter three -- I'm thinking it'll be more of a comic and light-hearted chapter -- I get to play with Skuld developing her powers -- uber coolness!